As a class exercise, I listened to this relaxation/biofeedback sound
clip. I’ve tried things like this before, with varying levels of success. Here
is an abbreviated version of my thought process.
“Wait, pause this, I should probably wear headphones for
this.”
“Wait, move to a more comfortable chair.”
“Did I take the chicken out of the freezer for dinner? No,
focus.”
“Deep breath in…relax…”
“What is the music? Are those crystal bowls? No, focus.”
“What is this guy’s accent? Sound like East Coast…wait,
focus. What’s he talking about?”
“Muscles are like sponges…no wonder I’m so wobbly when I
lift things! Ha! No, focus now.”
Ok, I think you probably get the idea – I’m easily distractible;
this is why meditation, guided imagery and similar exercises are usually very
difficult and not effective for me. However, at this point in the sound clip, I was
able to pay more attention to the instructions and less to my own haphazard and
flyaway thoughts.
The purpose of this particular guided meditation is for
the listener to mentally increase the flow of blood to the arms and hands. My
success the first time around was…limited. This is a very new concept for me, and
I think a very small part of the logical part of my brain was vaguely skeptical
about the whole idea, which is obviously somewhat inhibitory. But, I did feel
something, which was more than I was expecting. During the exercise I become
very aware of my heartbeat and the flow of blood in my chest and abdomen. My
hands and arms didn't feel warm or heavy, at least not this time. I think I
will try again tomorrow and the next day and see if it will come with practice.
(I wonder what it would be like to meditate here?!)